Feb 28 2002
The Pangs of Motherhood
While it was difficult to leave my two month old son at daycare and head off for work, it wasn’t as difficult as it is now. He’s at a really exciting stage in his life where his interest in the world is writ large in his bright blue eyes.
It’s a real joy to read to him now. He’s attentive to the sound and rhythm of my voice. He is fascinated by brightly colored pictures and pages which have something for him to feel. There’s no getting him to let go of the lion’s mane in his Touch and Feel Wild Animals book! (All this has spurred my current obsession with children’s literature.)
It’s a little harder to discern how much music affects him, but some signs indicate it’s yet another source of stimulation for him. For instance, I was listening to Beethoven’s Ninth the other night and Sammy got this faraway look in his eyes when the “Ode to Joy” began. I could not gain his attention even by waving my hand in front of his face. He was concentrating on something very hard. I’m convinced it was the music since the change in his expression coincided with the change of melody and instrumentation. Who knows though? It could have been one of those magical baby dreams that captured his imagination…
The rate at which he’s learning new things is breathtaking! Only a couple of days ago, he sat up unassisted for ten whole minutes. He’s also trying his darndest to crawl and can scoot forward a couple of inches. He is more successful scooting around on his back, though. We placed him on on a quilt with some of his toys and expected him to play quietly there. In the few moments that we had our backs turned on him, he managed to scoot completely off the quilt and ended up underneath a chair. Is it time for us to childproof, or what? I’m not sure I’m ready for this!
With so many wonderful things happening, it just kills me to leave him behind. I don’t want to miss out on anything!
