Aug 31 2001
Home Alone
I had really been looking forward to being at home alone. While I appreciated all the help I had been receiving from my mothers-in-law, I also found it hard to relax around them. I don’t know either one of them all that well and couldn’t help but worry about what they thought of me. This was especially stressful since I wasn’t on my best behavior. Being in pain made me cranky. Being exhausted made me short-tempered. Dealing with Samuel’s feeding problems made me insecure. I demanded a lot of TLC.
I expected all of this to improve this week, which was my first week alone with the baby. And it did, in a lot of ways. I’m in a lot less pain. I’ve adjusted to the baby’s sleep schedule and breastfeeding is much better now (he’s gaining weight). What I didn’t count on is how bored and lonely I would become. Don’t get me wrong. I love my baby & am grateful that I can spend this time with him, but I miss the excitement of work and the company of friends.
