May 18 2001
We were there for only
We were there for only a short period of time, but the visit left us emotionally drained. Afterwards, Robert and I held one another. I cried. Robert was silent in that way men have when they are coping with something difficult. Where did we go that caused us to react this way? The childcare center where we would be leaving our baby.
It’s not a bad place. In fact, it’s very clean and decorated pleasantly. The staff seemed highly capable and the children well looked after. Parents were even encouraged to bring in their child’s special blanket or a mobile to hang over the crib. So, what was so disturbing about it? Nothing more (or less) than the fact that we would be leaving our child there. No longer would I be able to keep him with me at all times. We would have to part. This realization led to another: being pregnant–carrying a child–is a blessed state, one enjoyed for only a short period of time.
